This is the tale of my journey of life. As I sit here writing all of my
heart out, some may find this story resembles their own. Some may find it
just as another tale. Along the journey saw different kinds of
people. People with beautiful smiles, sad people, happy people, people who look
worried and people with interesting qualities. Some were genuine some have been
fake.
Though at times it is hard to go on. An inner voice keeps me up and keep
me going. Too often I have tried and too often I have failed. It is just like one
of those days where I would want just to lie down on my bed, close my eyes,
switch off my phone and forget about this world. These things are just my
wishes but it is not something easy to do as said. Responsibility of family
keeps pushing me. Telling me never to quit.
My son all grown up but still a child in my eyes. Looking for work is what
he does these days. As his mom I do wish him success. Carried away in the
thought of life. Let just go back to the tale of life. I am a single mom. In a
relationship with someone more in my imagination than in real. Feeling all that
women feel, but hardly able to achieve any of it. Hoping things would change.
Hoping tomorrow would make it easy. Maybe the right time hasn’t come yet. Maybe
haven’t made the right choice. All questions which just needs answers.
As I was someone looking for a life, was so glad to have him by my side.
With high hopes and believing every word he said. Thought this time things
would be different. Believed I’ve had the time of my life. Things was going smooth
as planned. Maybe for him but not for me. I had my dreams, I had my hopes. I
had the desire to be his bride. As days passed. Things started to clear up.
Only to find I was head over heels in luv with a guy who is already taken.
Taken for granted.
Then came the phase where I knew where I stand. As he explained the tale
of his life. I was wondering where this was going. I had nothing to say, nowhere
to go and no one beside. All alone though he was there. Still I am hoping for
more. He had his reason and reason only he knows. I tried my best to live pass
the test. Once again took the path to where I want to be..
Days and months went by. Still together and still the same. Few times came
up where thing started to change. A better change so I thought. Felt special
and felt at ease.
To be continued....
